la dolce vita.
Being back here, even for this short amount time has emphasized the fact that I don't belong here and I don't think I ever really did to begin with. I think I may be the only person in the history of the world (well as far as the people I have spoken with about this topic) who has no love for their hometown. Call me what you will, this place is dead to me. I love my friends and sometimes my family, but I don't really connect them to this miserable tundra. My relationship with MN has and most likely will continue to be, a horrible mistake, riddled with cancer and regrets. I love you all, but come into the light, you don't have to live this way.
I have had this on and off relationship for most of my life now. Twists and turns, ups and downs, love and hate. I think most people will be able to relate to this drama. No I am not talking about a person, I feel this may be something far more personal then that, I am talking about my love affair with music. It has been my constant companion through the worst times of my life and the best. Sometimes it serves as a reminder of the past, good or bad, a glimpse of the future, dreams not yet recognized. Yes I have started this stormy relationship, yet again. These past couple of weeks it has served as a lifeline and supportive friend. I missed this aching feeling for awhile, I thought music and I had hit rock bottom and the chances for recovery were way to slim to even consider starting over, but alas, as it always does, it gathered strength and came thundering back into my life, it always does, I have no idea why I ever doubted it. The most unusual things happen now, I will wake up with a song in my head I haven't heard in years or I will just put a pillow down in the middle of the floor, hit shuffle on ole Flounbard (my ipod) and just lay for hours absorbing as much music as I can before the stampede comes rolling through the door. It is always so exciting to get back together, I hope music doesn't disappoint me again this time.
Keeping it real down here in warmtown u.s.a. Well duh. Booked a German editorial. Super rad. Lovin every second of my life, except for this gnarly upper respitory infection I got goin on, spent way to much time in urgent care yesterday, luckily after much much to much time and one blasphemous doctor telling me I need glasses, i got dome killer antibiotics, which is a real good thing cause I didn't want to miss out on the fun last night. I for sure didn't. Art show, o asian and dancin at Set. Hung out with alot of cool peeps, one in particular.. Love it here, man....